Crash and Burn

You look at me,

You say those words,

You smile at me,

I gaze back so pathetically.

Here I am, back where I started:

Heart beating fast

Breathing short

And those butterflies in my stomach?

Oh, they’re there, too.

I’ve gone through this before,

Only to crash and burn

In the end.

How’s a girl to know –

How am I to know –

When I won’t be burned again?

Is it the start of a new story,

Or is my movie reel on instant replay?

All we do is talk,

You’re like my drug—

Addictive, thrilling, and scary.

I can’t go a day without my fix.

It’s never been like this before,

But I can’t help but wonder if it’s just a mirage

Am I yet again grasping at straws that were never mine?

I’ve gone through this before,

Only to crash and burn

In the end.

How’s a girl to know –

How am I to know –

When I won’t be burned again?

Is it the start of a new story?

Or is my movie reel on instant replay?

All I can do is trust

That maybe this time it won’t hurt

That maybe this time it’s meant to be.

There was a reason I met you,

That I know for sure.

But I hope it’s not just me.

I’m here,

Waiting,

I’ve spent my whole life searching,

And I’m only hoping you’ve found it in me, too.

Here I am, back where I started:

Heart beating fast

Breathing short

And those butterflies in my stomach?

Oh, they’re there, too.

I’ve gone through this before,

Only to crash and burn

In the end.

How’s a girl to know –

How am I to know –

When I won’t be burned again?

Is it the start of a new story?

Or is my movie reel on instant replay?

It can’t be, it can’t be…

Okay, so I wrote this a long time ago, back in October.  Right after I thought something would turn out wonderful.  But... not so much, as I found out.  Maybe it's again applicable.